The Emo Aquarium Remix

This blag (Emo Aquarium) would be more of a personal ranting space, whereas Anonymous Green will be more of my life and work. Please visit there more often for frequent updates.

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I figure I should talk less and draw more. (: Collaborating with my other half. <3

I've told myself; I will only post in this journal if I ever felt emo or in need to vent a sort of childish frustration that cannot dealt with "professionally". I thought I would never post here anymore, because lately, I have been rather positive! I have not felt sad or melancholic in a while.

And today's the day I fall back on square one for a while.

Having a girlfriend has its pros and cons. It does make you a lot happier, things are more fun everywhere. Then again, you have friends who start distancing themselves from you, people who think "oh this guy is too busy with his girlfriend, he probably doesn't want to hang out with us". Then I get that feeling, of being alone.

Have I been wrong in my priorities?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

My bad, this isn't really a laughing matter but... I'd like to be evil once in a while. (:

I'm surprised that I'm collecting a lot of music lately. And yet I don't listen to most of them because I never have the time. During my childhood, I never gave thought to music, and I grew up in a world of silence.

That fateful day I heard my friends perform as a band in the school scout's campfire event, I started listening to punk rock music, and it grew from there.

And now I'm waiting anxiously for Dido's new album. (: September 2008, yosh!

Oh, I know why the seniors secretly despise me. It IS really because I shout a lot and throw accuses and vulgarities around, and it just so happens they take it so personally.

I guess I deserve it. Games can only ever wreck my life.

I experienced first hand a new level of "talking behind one's back" today. My senior refered to me as a bad example, and he did it physically behind my back. I was playing dota anyway, so I didn't bother to respond.

Now that I am free, I feel pretty much insulted. Alas, I am only a junior who shouts a lot and gets upset when I'm losing at dota.

I played a lot of DotA today. In fact, a little too much. Most of which were incomplete, because the opposing team was losing and the players left the game.

Of the many games I played tonight, only one was completed to the end, and I was on the losing side. How flattering. Malaysians, I tell you. Much like me, if they find that there's no reason to keep playing because the next 40 minutes will just be a losing fight, they'll just leave the game without caring if anybody else wants to continue.

I left a game once, and for the next 3 games I joined afterwards, other people who recognized me told the host to kick me out because I was a leaver. Like, wtf. Those guys who were telling on me, they left the game too! And I got kicked out. So screw those bastards lah, I join another server. Problem solved.

It was just a matter of time before I realized. Time doesn't wait for me anyway. My mind isn't ready yet.

I wonder how I'd look in a suit.

Recently, I came across a dude at college who likes to dwell on his personal laptop and sing really awkward boyband love songs. To the point I actually made fun of him by gossiping to my close friends about how terrible he sings.

Then it all backfired when i gossiped to my seniors, and I was insulted for my talking behind his back. I learned the bitter way, that gossiping is never good. I should have known. I picked up a bad habit and got shot down pretty quick.

that dude's singing was honestly bad though. But i do commend him for his courage to sing it out without feeling embarrassed. I should probably learn from him.

I had yet another one of those time-travelling dreams again. This time it was some approaching apocalyptic day, and I had two chances at reliving the events. Pretty weird...

My seniors are a bunch of funny people.

I have many dreams and hobbies in life, many of which I have dropped because time, ability and opportunities won't allow. Some of them include: Singing, dancing, breakdancing, guitars, clarinet, drums, parkour, programming games and comic-drawing.

I have traded all of those to what I can only do now, which is quite sad: Illustrating. Even so, I am still not very good at it. I am slightly emo tonight. Hahaha!

Not that I have any grudges against the artist or anything.

TohjoSakana has quite a few pictures in her gallery. Is it just me, or are the Transformers... girly, and on top of that...

I see the Transformers in yaoi-like suggestive poses. I don't know if robots touching each other are a turn-on of any sort, but I am a bit creeped out by them.

There were a few people who like drawing gory stuff. Some people like to draw pregnant characters (DA has quite a few sites, but I'm lazy to search). But girly Transformers...

I don't hate the artist nor the art, nor the idea of characters portrayed in her DA site. I'm just stating that I'm... amused. XD

The Handwritten Meme
1) your handle/name/username
2) left or right handed?
3) favourite letters to write
4) least favourite characters to write
5) write "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog."
6) tag 5 people

All of the Thailand TV advertisements I've seen so far, I really liked them. The simplicity, the short length and the strong message they get across. If only Malaysia was as good at this too; I wouldn't have to dread the moment of lengthy and boring tv commercials in between my favourite programmes.

(video link above stolen from teh-o)

I played Portal today. (: Alas, since it was a pirated copy, there were no voice clips innit. ):

'twas a bit lonely this last night, but at least it's better than staying at home like I've always done back in my school days.

She was on maternity leave for two months. Now that she's back... ):

Been a while since I last blogged about what I've done.

Last Sunday was a small BBQ gathering among my schoolmates, hosted by my friend Derek. It's not as grand or popular as last year, but I'm glad I got to see some old faces. (: It's good to know they're doing fine and all. I kinda wished there were more people around though.

Yesterday was my school's prom night event. I invited myself with the help of Chern, since he bought the ticket for me. Everybody was dressed in semi-formal to full formal, while I was the only person who was in casual wear. Truly embarassing, I didn't think this would be the time in my life that I had to attend events in formal attire. I don't have any suitable clothing in my wardrobe anyway.

Met up with some old friends, but many of them were unfamiliar, especially the abundant amount of females. Up to 17 years of age, I've only made friends with males in my school. Being in Form 6 means my classmates have made a good count of female friends, leaving me behind in the social race.

I hung out with the "bachelor's league" dudes, even though I was not exactly single. I came without a date anyway. Everybody else who was cool enough had at least one girl with them. The food there was great. I hogged some Beef Lasagna, but too much that I was feeling stuffed and uncomfortable.

I miss the old days when all my friends were "girlfriend-less", and would just go about hanging out with other guys and talking about girls or football or video games. Gone were the days when I felt young and dorky, and the thought of dressing up to be prom king-worthy was unheard of. Or maybe, it's just me. I haven't matured enough, perhaps.

I'm glad some of my friends have not at least, forgotten my name. I feel a bit relieved, but I am at guilt for not being able to remember their names. They're no longer school kids. They're young adults now. What makes me?